Wednesday, September 12, 2012

NOSTALGIA

I am home now after completing the five long years of my architecture studies and I must say if feels great to be back and more so because I came back with much more wisdom and maturity and great experiences for life. I have accomplished a great deal in past five years not just academically but personally as well and now when I am back and look back at the last five years I spent away from home I realize life in a hostel teaches you more about world than any other thing and this is something every one should experience. You have loads of  fun at college, you learn loads and most of all have experiences of a lifetime. 

When I was away I used to regret going to hostel but now I think that was the best thing that happened to me and although I still am not good at not getting cheated by so called friends still I have atleast  learned enough not to get hurt too much by the cold behavior of "FRIENDS". 

I have also learnt one very important thing that wherever you to study you always find atleast one teacher who will believe in you and your potentials and be teacher for you in true sense, so never stop looking out for  a good teacher.

I do miss the college life I have left behind forever and although I love to be back home there is a part of my me who dosen't want to leave that college girl behind and hopefully I will get to meet that irresponsible college girl in me very soon.

I guess this is what actually life is always wanting what you have left behind and never appreciating what you have. When I was in school I wanted to be a little kid again and when I was a kid I wanted to be a big girl then when I was in college I wanted to go back to school and now when I am finished with college I don't want to leave that time behind.

But for now i guess I am just happy to be home.

Friday, March 2, 2012

MY WORLD: ALL ABOUT ARCHITECTURE






It's been a very long time since I last posted, so this post is going to be a long one ;)..... I am about to leave college in about 2 months and finally I get to do something I love CONSERVATION...that's right this is my thesis topic and this is the reason I chose architecture to study conservation..So my exact topic is "CONSERAVTION AND ADAPTIVE RE-USE OF THE RANTHAMBHORE FORT". It is a fort in the Sawai Madhopur district of Rajasthan and has a great history, it is in the middle of the ranthambhore tiger park. It is considered to be the IMPREGNABLE fortress. Nobody could invade the fort unless there was help from inside. Anyways my main aim is to conserve the fort to its former glory and design a heritage hotel in one of the MAHAL's of the fort and I have chosen Badal Mahal as my proposed site.














I love conservation as I am a great enthusiast of heritage buildings. I have always loved history and conserving the history through conservation of heritage buildings was why I chose architecture in the first place.
 I basically very strongly believe that you can never go ahead if you destroy your history...your traditions and culture...and so here I am conserving the history and glory of past.
And people let me tell you I have enjoyed this year of y thesis like anything I have loved researching about construction techniques and  about the rich history of the RANTHAMBORE FORT. Its great and I think everybody should do their part in conserving the heritage.
 I JUST LOVE CONSERVATION :)

Sunday, August 21, 2011

JUST SOME THOUGHTS

Its been a long time since I last posted and a lot has happened . I am sitting in my room at my home not wanting to leave and go to my college for my last year. I had my training last semester and it was an awesome experience and I realized it does not matter what others think of you as long as you know what you are. This holds true for everything in life academics, beliefs, your character everything. I can not turn bad if somebody talks bad about me and neither will I turn into an extremely good person if somebody says so, I will be exactly the same person no matter what others think about me, so why bother what anybody thinks about me, nobody can change me and I can not change others too, so just be yourself and let go of things..... life is much simpler and happier that ways. You just have to stay emotionally aloof from most of the people mixing only with a few handful who would never want to change you and who has never thought negative of you and never ever give anybody the power to control you emotionally and mentally. So with these thoughts, though unwillingly I will leave for my college expecting my life to be a little better than it was earlier. And I will be thankful to god for such wonderful family and friends back home and just be happy......

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

EMOTIONS.....

I am sitting in my hostel room confused within myself ...fighting with my emotions.....at one point angry the very next second sad...and then suddenly happy over something and then again sad.....its all so confusing....and then after so many emotions i feel confused about what actually i am feeling....and then i can make out only one thing that i am not feeling good...these emotions can sometimes be so confusing and but still we have to feel them we cant help it....and i feel like sharing everything with someone...and then i think against it and then i stop halfway through telling all that....and if at all i tell then there is no one who can actually understand and just listen to what i m saying without any expert comments or analysing....people listen and give their own comments what they think...but it does not matter what they are thinking....its me who is thinking and feeling all this.....and that should be listened to and understand ....everybody is the rush of proving him/her better...its like you can not speak your thoughts out loud...because if you do then people around can not resist the temptation to prove you wrong and to prove themselves, their thoughts superior to you.....and i wonder in the end does this all even matters....and so in the end i decide to keep all what i m feeling in me push it all inside me...and when all of it gets too hard to take in then call any one of my few far off friends to listen to all that......because no matter what they are always there to just listen to me make me feel good...and not  analyse me or prove me wrong...and see now when i am thinking about them i am already feeling better....i love you all....

Thursday, August 26, 2010

RANDOM..

Its 12.30 in the night and i am sitting in my room in my HOME...its the middle of the semester and fortunately or unfortunately i am home and i am loving every moment of it....HOME when we hear the word a rush of emotions  go through us..when i was not in the hostel i never thought much about my home but when i left my home my parents and my brothers for higher studies i realized the importance of my FAMILY of mummy papa brothers and home....and its so true we never realize the importance of anything which we have in life..we take everything for granted..and when we are away from them then we realize their importance..but how unfair is that..if i had realized the importance of home then i may never have had left it..and i would  have been happy with my family..but here i am away from my mummy papa brother who need me all the time and i have to wait for my college holidays or my teachers approval to visit my own home my parents even if they need me or i need them.....and this is all because we take things for granted until we lose them....but then may be if we do not lose them we may never realize the importance they hold in our lives.. may this the way of life to teach us things practically.....its a vicious circle which will never end and we will have to live through this all our lives........

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

The happy days.....

The other day i was brooding on all the problems in our lives :( ...and then i saw the photograph of my school and i went back in time...the time when we were young, careless, energetic, and HAPPY...those were the happiest days of my life( and i am sure everybody's life) there was nothing to worry about..every other day we used to have a different best friend and still everybody else also used to be our best friend....being friends with someone or loving someone or being loved by someone was not so difficult then....those were the times when having a barbie less than your friend made you poorest person on earth and having more barbies made you richest :)....the time when the most dreadful thing that could happen to me was my brothers breaking the neck of my dolls!!!!!!!......the time when everyday in the evening we used to play with the children in our colony and fight with them over small things such as a kite or even a shiny looking stone....the time when broken toys, old copies, pen and a collection of stones used be our treasure.......life was so easy then..nobody could hurt us... one moment we were crying and the next we were laughing our hearts out......the days when we never cared about our clothes and appearances..when we used to go out and play in mud and make temples with sand and stone gods...and the days when our mothers were always after us to come inside and not to play in mud...and we used to think when we will grow up...and now that i am grown up i want become a little girl again....i want to be happy i want to live life and i want to go back to my childhood days....i dont want to be hurt and i don't want to break down...why being happy becomes so difficult when we grow up???? why such a simple thing as smilling takes all our efforts and where does all the love inside us goes?????why life becomes so screwd up once we grow up..why do we have to grow  up???.. :( ...and i really don't want to grow up....i want to live my chidhood days again when i was my mummy papa's pretty little girl...........when i was HAPPY...